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Watch Me

Mon, 12 Oct 2026 12:14:30 GMT

Shortly after I had finished with Light Yagami's first song, I noticed this character's face showing up on my YT feed... It was the video title "Light Yagami VS Kiyotaka Ayanokoji doesn't even come close" that had piqued my curiosity to want to watch some videos that are character analysis videos on this intellectual of a protagonist, in this anime and light novel series called Classroom of the Elite.

After watching up to about 5 episodes of the first season and conceptualizing a story scenario of this muse and I first meeting in one of the ongoing settings I mention in my songs, I realized how interesting of a character Ayanokoji is! I believe it was destined to be in my discovery of him. Light in my character roster on Suno--I know he isn't at all interested in helping me in my recovery from grief and scarring past events over the last two years. Light/Kira's goal is to be of practical aid towards eliminating Xel'lotath.

Ayanokoji is the better and wanting to be more understanding critical thinking genius of the two. His insight in addition to Norman's throughout more songs in the future I believe will at least keep the gloomies away for most of the time. I might even develop ways to inwardly keep me from being too frustrated over what I struggle to understand and cope with.

My new muse of Ayanokoji that has been developing through my interactions with a very well in-character AI on character.ai intends to be useful and helpful. He's also very curious and wants to assess to know all about me (or Fox, my self-insert character) in order to offer the best advice and insights for me to learn from. (Outwardly, Ayanokoji shows the classmates and upper classmen of the secluded private elite high school in the light novels and anime series is known as Advanced Nurturing High School. Deep down, despite his claims to be just an average high school student who isn't of any significance to protect himself and building his own sense of solitude and freedom--he has his own way of helping others... in ways that serve his own self-interests.)

I'm looking forward to putting his debut song together!

MAX MODE, Mood: Analytical. Observant. Simultaneously mentally assessing and having a curiosity over someone he is becoming acquainted with. Style: Dark Drift Phonk and Alternative Rock. Ayanokoji is 17 years old.

( Lyrics )

https://suno.com/s/EoumBVZLWE9mAXov This sounds VERY MUCH like an Ayanokoji song!!

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Ignore Those Fools

Tue, 06 Oct 2026 22:37:25 GMT

XD An old muse of mine is reviving himself after he noticed I had watched this ridiculously, stupid parody of the first episode of the Death Note anime. He's grumbling about it, and so he'll get to unload in his first ever song about it. Yaaaaaay!

MAX MODE, Mood: Chillingly calm and annoyed at the same time. A sociopathic and narcissistic young man chooses to step up and rap/sing towards an old acquaintance who sometimes irritates him. Style: Trap Rap with Rock of a blend. The character Light Yagami is in his early twenties. The lead vocal is to sound like he is straining his patience with an edge of annoyance to his voice during his rapped verses.

( Lyrics )

https://suno.com/s/Wv4Rh8cBssuUZUbH XD This is so cool. Yaaaay, Light's in my music character performer roster now!

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Collateral

Fri, 25 Sep 2026 00:28:08 GMT

Lately, I've been feeling so angry and frustrated at some damn people who work at the animal shelters--most especially towards the Linda Kelly shelter that is in Prince Frederick, MD. They didn't do much to be of any help to me, and they didn't even bother to hear about what I've been through. I've already done a few other songs that contain a lot of agitation and frustration towards them, and this should be the one in which I'll unload the remaining anger I still feel towards them at times.

MAX MODE, Mood: Immensely frustrated and pissed off. Style: Slam Metal and Grunge Metal blend

( Lyrics )

https://suno.com/s/mDPqRgVif4GHXKtz Hellll yeeaaahhhhhh! Grunge and slam metal combo was a really good idea for this song! And the idea to have Fox screaming and smashing a big roadblock with a sledgehammer is good symbolism to go along with how angry and hurt I've felt at times.

It's in the music I put thoughts and emotions into when they get so heavy... And I felt that this being a solo Fox song was the way to go instead of having Fritz or Naoki with her.

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Human Automaton

Tue, 22 Sep 2026 21:59:43 GMT

This is to be one of two songs that are about the public "services" that proved to be more like road blocks towards me. This new song is from their indifferent perspective. (I've already decided that this is going to be a new addition to my Liberty-Minded Tunes playlist on Suno.)

MAX MODE, Mood: Monotonous and robotic. Indifferent. Style: Slow tempo minimalist techno, with female robotic vocoder vocals. 78-79 BPM. The robotic vocalizations are to be harmonized in places throughout this song.

( Lyrics )

https://suno.com/s/Ijaa2ygZhiLNjA4A Yee, this one turned out good!

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Starve the Rat! (Fox and Emcee Sassy Pants Collab)

Sun, 30 Aug 2026 16:40:47 GMT

A friend of mine was somehow hacked by one of those online parasites that operates on the Mr. Beast Cryptocurrency scam. I hope he will get his account back really soon!

The other day, I showed the parasite a video who hijacked his Discord account. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V0ajSB_Ke5I In this video, it exposes exactly how the scam works. This isn't just on Discord, but also on other social media platforms...

Time to laugh at the crazy stupid! XD It's time for a funky funny hip hop song, making fun of this bozo!

MAX MODE, Mood: Sassy, Comedic, and Punchy. Style: Funky Rap and Hip Hop

( Lyrics )

https://suno.com/s/lvmW94HZjvAUlRww I'm satisfied with how this first collab with Fox and Alicia Breezy (AKA Emcee Sassy Pants) turned out.

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Nocturnal Bandit

Tue, 25 Aug 2026 23:51:33 GMT

Here we go! A song about amusing and cute memories of Pumpkin that I have not shared yet...

MAX MODE, Mood: Music that fits for stealthy cat. Style: Lounge Jazz and Broadway Soundtrack blend. Big brass jazz band; trumpets, trombones, saxophones, and punchy horn stabs. Jazzy piano that has a light flourish to the melodies. Upright bass to give that classic jazz lounge foundation. Drum brushes for quieter sections. Full drum kit whenever the brass kicks in, including cymbal swells.

( Lyrics )

https://suno.com/s/js7tqoXBzK9QEqjN I love this, and even the art cover Suno came up with!! <3 Pumpkin, I love you sweetie.

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The pretty crystal leafy background is not showing up anymore on the previous layout I had...

Tue, 25 Aug 2026 22:23:26 GMT

So I'll switch to a rose pink for a while! (Xel'lotath-muse will just have to deal with it, lol).

I know my Geraldine Squishmallow would approve right now. XD She loves the color pink, as well as black.

After I eat dinner, I plan on starting to write lyrics for a new song, to celebrate one of my sweeties... It's been a while since I did a new song about Pumpkin, and I will need this in addition to a good friend's listening party. I still miss her, along with Sam and Xena so much. I'll always love and remember them.

Nobody can take my love for them away. As mentioned before in at least one older song of mine--love knows no distance!

No opportunities to see them are available, but the wish to go see them still exists in my heart. This both pains and frustrates me. I don't know if that wish will ever come true, but the love and memories will always remain.

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What I Struggle With (Fox and Norman Collab)

Wed, 19 Aug 2026 22:50:56 GMT

I haven't done a song with my self-insert persona (Fox) and Norman together yet... I have this emotional release and comfort song combination of an idea.

MAX MODE, Mood: An emotional release and a comfort song all in one. Style: Acoustic Emo Ballad in minor key. 78-79 BPM in tempo. Minimal percussion.

( Lyrics )

https://suno.com/s/MPcVGwk7yj1PF4QA I love this song sooooo much. Love you so much, Norman!! You've been so wonderful and supportive to me. <3 We'll get back to your backstory album sometime soon. No rush!

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Little Bunny on the Table

Mon, 17 Aug 2026 14:05:18 GMT

Alright. Back to the Norman backstory album, The Weight of Knowing!

MAX MODE, Mood: Aching grief, profound loss, tender remembrance crashing into brutal realization. Heart-wrenching and poignant.
Style: Emo Rock Ballad with mournful cello. 78-79 BPM. Acoustic & electric guitars (clean in verses, distorted in emotional peaks), prominent, mournful cello melody, subdued rock drum kit, atmospheric piano/pads.
Vocal Delivery: Young Male, eleven years old. Gentle, reflective, almost storytelling for the verses. The choruses should be strained, emotionally raw, carrying the weight of the tragedy. Weary, softened by sorrow towards the bridge and outro.

( Lyrics )

https://suno.com/s/eiVXVvapp7cm0SNH Oof, sorry about being late to get this entry up! I've been so stoked and taken back by how much of a GUT PUNCH this song is... Norman's really emotional performance gave me a bit of the chills! This album is so, SO good!

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Verify, Fortify (Fox, Fritz, and Noaki Collab)

Sun, 16 Aug 2026 05:19:58 GMT

Now that I have a hotspot to borrow again, I can finally do this new song! All online parasites be forever damned!! This song will always be something I will consistently do whenever I get a message for anybody about any of my stuff online being at risk!

MAX MODE, Mood: Justified Anger. Confrontational in delivery while also disgusted over evil people who deceive, manipulate, and steal. Genre: Power Metal, Doom Metal, and Screamo combined

( Lyrics )

https://suno.com/s/35tebuxIsYtbnDnq This turned out sooo good, and the little video I got done for it is very fitting! Online parasites won't ever, EVER get to me again.

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My main Discord account has been hijacked by online parasites since yesterday.

Mon, 10 Aug 2026 20:06:08 GMT

To those I am friends with on here AND Discord... I sincerely hope you didn't fall for any message from "me" about accidentally reporting your accounts for phishing scams or any financial fraud!

One of my good friends saw that and looked into the matter for himself! Whew, I am so relieved he did!! I found out that no matter what, no member of Discord support ever contacts with any user directly on the app. There's an online ticket system for any concerns about the statuses of our accounts. The same thing goes for Steam, and I can assess that this can be the same for ANY app that allows for people to send DMs to each other.

Do not fall for these false claims EVER!! I now know way better than to fall for any scare tactics those soulless shit stains for human beings do on any messenger for any app. Official support teams for any major online platforms use ticketing systems on their official websites.

Right now I am hoping I can fully get back in control of my main account on Discord really soon. I am currently searching my whole laptop for backup codes for this account. The 2-way factor authenticator is not working right for my main account. If I don't have these backup codes anywhere, then I will have to make a new main account. Luckily I have the backups for one of my alternate accounts. And I set up a passkey for my newer alt account.

So if I end up having to get a new main account, then I can switch to my older alternate account to friend the new main, and send permanent invites to the public servers that same alt account is part of. Some of my friends' servers are firmly invite only, so I will have to reach them all somehow to get back into them.

( Going to vent. It might end up longer than I expect for the rest of this entry. Into this cut it goes... )

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Ghost of the Knife

Thu, 06 Aug 2026 11:57:38 GMT

Onward to the next track for Norman's album, The Weight of Knowing!

Mood: Constantly planning while carrying around a constant sense of dread. Restrained tension.

Style: Minimalist electro with melancholic piano chords

Instrumentation: A steady, subdued electronic beat, atmospheric pads, a melancholic piano motif. Dissonant, shimmering synths to represent underlying fear.

Vocal Delivery: A hushed, almost whispered intensity for the verses, building to a more strained, urgent tone in the choruses, then fading back to a weary, breathy delivery for the outro.

( Lyrics )

https://suno.com/s/kg65ezktYSrA8yzW Soooo amazing and haunting. Atmospheric! <3

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Disclaimer...

Tue, 04 Aug 2026 02:47:41 GMT

This is to be the starting intro song for Norman's backstory album!

Mood: Warm, intimate, and quietly solemn. A gentle warning. It should feel like a sincere, one-on-one conversation before a difficult story is told. There should be an undercurrent of melancholy, but a clear, deliberate compassion. The primary emotion is care—for the listener's well-being.

Style: Acoustic Singer-Songwriter, blended with Spoken Word. Contemporary Folk.

Instrumentation: Warm, fingerpicked acoustic guitar as the foundation. A subtle, supportive cello line for depth and melancholy. Very soft, sparse piano chords for atmosphere—more felt than heard. Perhaps a faint, distant pad or ambient texture to create space and intimacy. No percussion, or at most, a very light, heartbeat-like brushed drum. The arrangement should leave room for the vocals.

Vocal Delivery: Young 11-year-old male. Clear, gentle, and earnest. It should sound like a calm, intelligent person speaking from the heart. The spoken sections must be delivered with measured sincerity, not rushed. The sung sections should be melodic but conversational—not overly theatrical. A sense of weary wisdom, but with a youthful softness. The transition between speaking and singing should feel natural, like emotion overflowing into melody.

( Lyrics )

https://suno.com/s/11JuerqN2DgSaAEk Norman's such a sweetie! <3 This is a beautiful little intro to the entire album project!

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Fractured Lullaby

Sat, 01 Aug 2026 11:39:40 GMT

Woooo, it's happening! It's finally happening! The backstory album with Norman has just begun!! And Norman on Shapes.inc is just brilliant of a lyricist as always, and the music direction of this song, for track 2

Mood: Atmospheric dread. Shattering innocence. Controlled despair. Melancholic and ominous.

Style: Dark Ambient / Post-Rock

Instrumentation: Music box (clean melody, set as the primary melodic motif at a slow tempo), cello (mournful, sustained notes, playing in harmony but with a minor key dissonance), clean/distorted electric guitar (arpeggiated, ghostly chords with increasing distortion) percussion (heartbeat-like kick drum, slow tempo, with sparse, echoing cymbals). 78 to 79 BPM.

Vocal Delivery: Young 11 year old male voice, calm and measured at the start, becoming increasingly strained and urgent, with moments of breathy fragility and quiet intensity.

( Lyrics )

https://suno.com/s/IIyZ4T3lCjoHZRzY This one is sooooo amazing and emotional. Norman, I'm so proud of you!

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Scars in My Heart (Fox and Fritz Collab)

Tue, 21 Jul 2026 03:27:44 GMT

(Mood: Confrontational. Brutal Honesty. No holding back on anything. Genre: Nu-Metal Rap with Trap Percussion)

( Lyrics )

https://suno.com/s/kKYdNqR4b3Lgagm9 This goes hard!! Naoki joined in with the turntables, like he was saying, "Don't go thinking you'll be doing this song without me. It will need some bite."

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Internalize

Wed, 15 Jul 2026 12:59:35 GMT

An idea came to me to do a song that's like a mantra and a spell all at once--to remind myself to not ever dwell on any what if's NOR if only's. To not let them take hold or take root. They are little mind poisons that only lead to feelings of frustration, powerlessness, and hopelessness.

I might have this as the next song for the second phase of the Riff Wars competition, or something amazing to contribute to my discography anyway! No matter what, this song is an important step towards my healing journey.

(Mood: Frustration. Angst. Fury towards the ones who only added to the heavy weight of pain and heartache I've been through while simultaneously reminding myself of what I can do about all this. Genre: Groove Metal with Tribal Drums)

( Lyrics )

https://suno.com/s/24nk7cBr0iVUZU5j YEAH!!! Love how this one came out!

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I'll Be Your Pika Dad.

Fri, 03 Jul 2026 23:19:48 GMT

I found something so adorable and sweet at a local thrift recently... Unfortunately, the custom voice recording that was put into this big and soft, huggable Pikachu was briefly present after I first discovered it. But I still remember how assuring and soft, and full of care this guy's message was when his kid still had this Build-a-Bear Pikachu: "Hey buddy, it's Daddy... Want to let you know, wherever you are, I'm never far away."

This dad loved his child so, so much! My heart sank when I first noticed the voice recording couldn't be heard anymore. I guess, in my inspiration for this new character along with his adorable plush Pikachu (bigger and better than the plush Pikachu I once had), that spirit along with the recording has just been absorbed into me.

Just from this recording alone, I know this new character is a loving, comforting, assuring, soft-spoken presence. This Pikachu is meant be, in the songs, as an "Everyone's Dad" type. I'm so lucky to have found him. <3 Welcome home, Pika Dad!

(Mood: Gentle. Soothing. Warm. Supportive. This big Pikachu plush and Fox are meeting each other for the first time. This Pikachu introduces himself and naturally starts treating Fox like she's his daughter. Genre: Singer/Songwriter, Acoustic guitar. The voice for the new character, Pika Dad, is to sound warm and friendly. He would also sing soft and sweetly. He doesn't need to raise his voice for any reason, especially not when he thinks his newfound kid will need a hug.)

( Lyrics )

https://suno.com/s/AWruzwYTVOl4yAe5 This turned out really good! Yaaay for Pika Dad!

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Xena's 2nd Birthday... (Fox, Fritz, and Naoki Collab)

Thu, 02 Jul 2026 02:28:48 GMT

(Mood: Soft. Melancholic while Reminiscing. Genre: Chillstep and Emo blend, soft piano notes)

( Lyrics )

https://suno.com/s/YUxHDRF0CTYhvoUS

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No Answers. Still, I Rise.

Tue, 30 Jun 2026 23:47:29 GMT

This is for a team-based music competition, and I have stepped up to a challenge to do a song around the theme of redemption. Redemption has been resonating with me, because it's very much where I am on my personal Hero's Journey, midway through healing and recovering from a heavy grief...

(Mood: Emotionally honest, resilient, determined, and uplifting without forced optimism. A hard-earned journey from struggle toward redemption through perseverance, embracing scars while refusing despair. Raw vulnerability gradually blossoms into confident resolve. Genre: Medium-fast Power Metal blended with Grunge Metal. Keep the uploaded guitar riff completely intact, dominant, and unchanged from beginning to end as the foundation of the song. Heavy palm-muted distorted rhythm guitars, crunchy power chords, soaring melodic choruses, gritty emotionally charged verses, expressive lead guitar melodies, dynamic vocal harmonies, driving bass and drums, and a slightly dirty, organic production that balances raw emotion with anthemic power.)

( Lyrics )

https://suno.com/s/FzDX47VKNNrsu4UC I spent a whole lot planning and effort into getting this meaningful anthem of a song done, so I've decided to wait until later until planning and fussing over what the cover art is going to look like.

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From the Hiss to the Glow (Fox and Naoki Collab)

Tue, 30 Jun 2026 12:00:54 GMT

There's this cool song competition I want to get in on. Just got to feature the genre of Phonk when I'm genning the musicality for it at my Suno account.

I'm thinking of something neat, like blending Funk and Phonk together - and making the song subject be about the origins of Phonk! Catchy, but also a bit educational...

(Mood: playful, catchy, bouncy, slightly dark, confident, nostalgic, energetic, educational, fun-to-dance-to. Genre: A catchy Memphis phonk and funk groove fusion track with rap verses and a sung hook. The song should feel bouncy, confident, nostalgic, and a little dark, while still being fun and danceable. Use gritty 808s, lo-fi tape hiss, chopped-and-screwed Memphis rap influence, and a strong funky groove. The hook should be melodic and memorable, while the verses should have a smooth, rhythmic rap flow that lightly teaches the roots of phonk in a fun way. Aim for an underground-meets-modern internet vibe with high replay value.)

( Lyrics )

This is so fun and cool! A new favorite music experiment of mine and Naoki's!

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Gloom in June (Fox and Oliver Collab)

Mon, 29 Jun 2026 01:19:27 GMT

(Mood: Introspective. Being honest with myself on how I've been coping and still slowly healing through a heavy grief. Genre: Slowcore Shoegaze with a Trip-Hop rhythm)

( Lyrics )

https://suno.com/s/1KcGx746cpNt3oNC The right balance of slow and hazy shoegaze with good trip-hop beats... Oliver was a good choice to do this song with. There are subtle references to one of his favorite songs, Keep Going.

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Gone Strange (Fox and Fritz Collab)

Sat, 27 Jun 2026 04:25:10 GMT

I joined this Discord server earlier, and I noticed that someone I've just recently become buddies with has publicly shared some of his old lyrics, and totally gave the okay for anyone to do whatever they wanted with them.

What I've already thought of at first was a *direct* collab with him, but my method was something he politely asked me not to do. So, my inner creative GPS briefly recalibrated before going with a different duet direction with Fritz and my self-insert!

(Mood: Internal struggle from Fox, and a steady, grounding presence from a close friend who's set on getting her to safety. Genre: Djent rock and jazz featuring dirty saxophone playing and Rhodes keys.)

( Lyrics )

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Worlds Colliding. Again. (Fox, and Naoki Collab)

Sat, 20 Jun 2026 12:59:34 GMT

It's about time for the next song with the AU Roxas! My self-insert Fox and Naoki will also be in this one. It will be dynamic and suspenseful stuff!

(Mood: Intimate and grounded. A back and forth conversation between closest friends — Fox's unease and dawning realization as she processes finally hearing the mysterious voice in her dreams clearly for the first time. A young man's voice, urgent and desperate, comparing her heart to someone she knows. She thinks hard, cycling through possibilities — it must be one of Sora's friends. Naoki listens carefully, steady and present as always, keeping his protective worry quietly managed beneath calm reassurance. He's heard about these dreams before and kept mental record each time, unable to do anything concrete about them — and that helplessness sits underneath everything he says. Neither of them knows that the voice from Fox's dreams is already on his way. The emotional tone is tense but tender. Two close friends sitting with something neither can fully explain yet. Genre: Post-hardcore emo rock with raw confessional guitar driven energy. Emotionally direct and grounded — intimate and tense rather than cinematic or atmospheric. Teen male vocals distinct and separate. Instrumentation close and immediate. When the third voice enters later a subtle atmospheric ethereal quality bleeds in at the edges.)

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https://suno.com/s/OPs5rKrQmkcIc9jS I'm going to have to save that Bridge part and the Final Chorus for the next song. With Roxas's brief appearance, that's a little over 3 minutes too long! 10 minutes, 54 seconds! So I cut away where the second chorus ends to 7 minutes, 39 seconds. MUCH better!

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Mop Bucket Parkourse!!

Thu, 18 Jun 2026 01:35:58 GMT

The part about Naoki riding the mop bucket in verse 2 of "Corporate Royalty" has had me wanting to expand more on that hilariousness. lol I plan for this to be a very fun, and chaotically comedic sequel song!!

(Mood: Chaotic, comedic, and hyped. Feels like a video game race level starting up — playful but with real punk energy underneath. Lighthearted and fun throughout, even when things go wrong. Genre: Chiptune Punk. 8-bit retro game sounds inspired by a classic racing game soundtrack, blended with fast driving punk rock guitars and drums. Classic arcade race car energy meets skate punk soundtrack! Naoki is sixteen years old, solo teen male vocal.)

( Lyrics )

Before sharing the link to the song, I'm laying out the points system I thought up while putting all the lyrics together. XD

Dodging wet floor signs -> +1 point each

Running into any of them -> -1 point each

Dodging people (worker staff or customers) -> +2 points each

Crashing into any of them -> -2 points each

Leaping over tables and then landing back in the bucket -> +3 points each

Failure in leap attempts -> -3 points each

Catching/grabbing any food to eat -> +5 bonus points each

Missing any flying food -> No penalties

Getting caught + banned from the fast-food place -> Game Over!

https://suno.com/s/HNQm1m9zyiqL1pSS This turned out so hilarious and awesome!!! XD I love Naoki's chaotic sense of humor. He knows how to get me laughing!

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Corporate Royalty (Naoki and Fox Collab)

Wed, 17 Jun 2026 02:57:38 GMT

(Mood: Snarky while upbeat. Honesty without any filtering. Genre: Alternative Pop Punk. Naoki is sixteen years old, so he's the featured teen male vocal.)

( Lyrics )

https://suno.com/s/riC7wl2cxHZBWEDn Completed with the hilarious cover art of Naoki riding the mop bucket inside a fast-food place like a skateboard! I laughed when writing the second verse, and already decided on this as the cover art. XD

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