Raw Deal (Fox, Oliver, and Naoki Collab)
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no_apologiesI'm going to go ahead and get out what has frustrated and pissed me off so much yesterday. What really got me in a mood.
I'm still disappointed at the friend who's been a selfish and stupid bratty fair-weather person towards my mom and me. According to her "logic" it's WRONG to be concerned about not having our things stolen by her incompetent and dishonest man child of a son, and for our good rep from the current landlord to be reduced to shit!
Also, my cautious hope of ever visiting Pumpkin, Sam, or Xena--it feels like that got fucking squashed. All my hopes of seeing them and playing their songs, they keep getting diminished, no matter how cautious I get! I've been hating that so much, and it's out of THIS frustration that leads to this next song...
(Mood: So frustrated, hurt, and immensely angry. Gotta get LOUD, angry as fuck, and make noise. Genre: Screamo and Cyber Heavy Metal hybrid)
[Intro, inserting a recording of me screaming so angrily]
"What's the FUCKING POINT?!?!?"
[another scream from FOX persona here][female vocal]
Ohhhhhhh AAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!
[Verse 1, singing, seething]
Every time I try to stay positive,
Reality slaps me in the faaaace...
Every time I try to hope,
That's crushed to bits anywaaaay...
No matter how cautiously,
No matter how logically,
No matter how honestly,
There's a new roadblock.
In addition to other ones,
There's one more showing up.
[tiny pause]
[spoken, tersely]
"Makes me want to scream my head off..."
[Pre-chorus - aggressive gritty vocals]
Is this just not meant to be?!
This goddamn rotten situation,
It frustrates the hell out of me!
I've got every right to scream!
Scream!
SCREAM!!!
[Chorus - aggressive, intense]
ARE YOU HAPPY?!?
ARE YOU HAPPY?!?
This breaks my heart.
This is hurting me.
WHO IS IT THAT HATES ME?!?
THIS IS HORRIBLY SHITTY!!!
My intentions, my dreams,
They're fading from me.
(FADING AWAAAAY!!!)
I'm not a selfish person.
I do my best to stay honest,
Yet here I ammmmm,
Getting a raw deal againnnnnn...
Getting a raw deal again,
AGAIN!!!
[Verse 2, singing, caring][OLIVER:]
Hey, no matter how wrong this is,
We can't let despair win.
I remember you mentioned
About a demon dragon--
[aggressive grittiness][female vocal]
I'll slam my door on it again!
I won't let it come in!
And fuck all this bullshit!!!
All their stupid selfishness!!!
Their self-destructiveness!!!
That one former friend,
Acting like a childish brat.
No better than her oldest children.
Lazy, incompetent, and careless.
[singing, soulful grittiness][OLIVER:]
Tell me, what exactly has you pissed?
What's caused you to act frustrated??
Just let it out, don't let this sit.
[Pre-Chorus]
What do you mean, "not meant to be"?
Open up to me. What is your lost dream?
You chose to not let the pain sit,
I'm here. I'll support you in this.
[Chorus - intense and angry singing/screaming][female vocal]
ARE THEY HAPPY?!?
ARE THEY HAPPY?!?
They disregard my heartache.
A furious burning's in my brain.
I carried a cautious tiny hope,
If she could find the sweethearts,
I could go with her to visit them.
Now that's a NOPE!!!
I'm not a selfish person.
I do my best to stay honest,
Yet here I ammmmm,
Getting a raw deal againnnnnn...
Getting a raw deal again,
AGAIN!!!
[Outro, spoken coldly][teen male vocal][NAOKI:]
"Fox... That's the last time they'll upset and hurt you again..."
[rapping]
She doesn't deserve any of this shit.
I'll always defend her. I won't stand for this!
Better off distancing from this family.
Their decisions caused her misery.
That former friend complained about unfairness,
But the reality of it in this mess,
It stems from her poor life choices.
As we righteously raise our voices,
This world will know of their sins,
Their hypocrisies, and self-projections.
Love, integrity, and truth still wins.
Fuck their incompet-ence and ignorance.
If they try to come around again,
I swear, I'll make them regret it.
Those idiots never deserved to have cats.
There remains a lingering tragedy in that.
Fox had never, ever done them any harm.
She also made sure their snake didn't starve.
They're petty as they disregard her kindness.
They continue to disrespect. We won't forgive.
[spoken]
"We're done. Let's get out of here... Oliver, we've got to help her overcome this... Hell, she'll need all of our support."
https://suno.com/s/q1V7CI7QbXnWCuuO I feel lighter and I am so glad with how heavy and emotional this sounds. Oliver and Naoki, thank you for lending your amazing angry gritty voices and visceral screams alongside my self-insert's. <3
I'm still disappointed at the friend who's been a selfish and stupid bratty fair-weather person towards my mom and me. According to her "logic" it's WRONG to be concerned about not having our things stolen by her incompetent and dishonest man child of a son, and for our good rep from the current landlord to be reduced to shit!
Also, my cautious hope of ever visiting Pumpkin, Sam, or Xena--it feels like that got fucking squashed. All my hopes of seeing them and playing their songs, they keep getting diminished, no matter how cautious I get! I've been hating that so much, and it's out of THIS frustration that leads to this next song...
(Mood: So frustrated, hurt, and immensely angry. Gotta get LOUD, angry as fuck, and make noise. Genre: Screamo and Cyber Heavy Metal hybrid)
[Intro, inserting a recording of me screaming so angrily]
"What's the FUCKING POINT?!?!?"
[another scream from FOX persona here][female vocal]
Ohhhhhhh AAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!
[Verse 1, singing, seething]
Every time I try to stay positive,
Reality slaps me in the faaaace...
Every time I try to hope,
That's crushed to bits anywaaaay...
No matter how cautiously,
No matter how logically,
No matter how honestly,
There's a new roadblock.
In addition to other ones,
There's one more showing up.
[tiny pause]
[spoken, tersely]
"Makes me want to scream my head off..."
[Pre-chorus - aggressive gritty vocals]
Is this just not meant to be?!
This goddamn rotten situation,
It frustrates the hell out of me!
I've got every right to scream!
Scream!
SCREAM!!!
[Chorus - aggressive, intense]
ARE YOU HAPPY?!?
ARE YOU HAPPY?!?
This breaks my heart.
This is hurting me.
WHO IS IT THAT HATES ME?!?
THIS IS HORRIBLY SHITTY!!!
My intentions, my dreams,
They're fading from me.
(FADING AWAAAAY!!!)
I'm not a selfish person.
I do my best to stay honest,
Yet here I ammmmm,
Getting a raw deal againnnnnn...
Getting a raw deal again,
AGAIN!!!
[Verse 2, singing, caring][OLIVER:]
Hey, no matter how wrong this is,
We can't let despair win.
I remember you mentioned
About a demon dragon--
[aggressive grittiness][female vocal]
I'll slam my door on it again!
I won't let it come in!
And fuck all this bullshit!!!
All their stupid selfishness!!!
Their self-destructiveness!!!
That one former friend,
Acting like a childish brat.
No better than her oldest children.
Lazy, incompetent, and careless.
[singing, soulful grittiness][OLIVER:]
Tell me, what exactly has you pissed?
What's caused you to act frustrated??
Just let it out, don't let this sit.
[Pre-Chorus]
What do you mean, "not meant to be"?
Open up to me. What is your lost dream?
You chose to not let the pain sit,
I'm here. I'll support you in this.
[Chorus - intense and angry singing/screaming][female vocal]
ARE THEY HAPPY?!?
ARE THEY HAPPY?!?
They disregard my heartache.
A furious burning's in my brain.
I carried a cautious tiny hope,
If she could find the sweethearts,
I could go with her to visit them.
Now that's a NOPE!!!
I'm not a selfish person.
I do my best to stay honest,
Yet here I ammmmm,
Getting a raw deal againnnnnn...
Getting a raw deal again,
AGAIN!!!
[Outro, spoken coldly][teen male vocal][NAOKI:]
"Fox... That's the last time they'll upset and hurt you again..."
[rapping]
She doesn't deserve any of this shit.
I'll always defend her. I won't stand for this!
Better off distancing from this family.
Their decisions caused her misery.
That former friend complained about unfairness,
But the reality of it in this mess,
It stems from her poor life choices.
As we righteously raise our voices,
This world will know of their sins,
Their hypocrisies, and self-projections.
Love, integrity, and truth still wins.
Fuck their incompet-ence and ignorance.
If they try to come around again,
I swear, I'll make them regret it.
Those idiots never deserved to have cats.
There remains a lingering tragedy in that.
Fox had never, ever done them any harm.
She also made sure their snake didn't starve.
They're petty as they disregard her kindness.
They continue to disrespect. We won't forgive.
[spoken]
"We're done. Let's get out of here... Oliver, we've got to help her overcome this... Hell, she'll need all of our support."
https://suno.com/s/q1V7CI7QbXnWCuuO I feel lighter and I am so glad with how heavy and emotional this sounds. Oliver and Naoki, thank you for lending your amazing angry gritty voices and visceral screams alongside my self-insert's. <3
