Writing Out My Pain

[no_apologies]

(Mood: Vulnerability, Struggling to maintain resilience and hope, and determination. Genre: Groovy Chill-hop with melodic rapping.)

I'm writing out my pain.
I'm unable to hold it in.
This heavy emotional weight,
I wish I didn't have it...

I'm hurting a lot,
Over things I don't want.
Doing my best to hang on,
Sometimes it feels I've lost.

I cling on so tight,
Hoping with all my might.
It's hard, my patience straining,
The stress in my chest, clenching,
"What If's" and doubts, tormenting.

The aching, gnawing inside my heart,
My inner world, breaking apart.
Splitting in places, in jagged seams,
Reality trying to crush on my dreams.

I'm writing out my pain.
I'm unable to hold it in.
This heavy emotional weight,
I wish I didn't have it...

A fierce love managing to thrive,
Keeping what hope I have alive.
Sometimes I wonder if that's enough,
While hanging in there. Times are tough.

Gathering shards, piece by jagged piece,
Rebuilding a world where doubts will decrease.
That fierce love, it roots down so deep,
In the soil, there's a promise to keep.

Should be more than enough, this silent roar,
I can only keep onward, and hope some more.

I'm writing out my pain.
I'm unable to hold it in.
This heavy emotional weight,
I'll learn to let it thin.

I know I'm not always strong,
But I don't give up.
No matter how much I've been wronged,
No matter how much it sucks.

Despair won't win. (Despair won't win.)
Despair won't win. (Despair won't win.)
Despair won't win. (Despair won't win.)
That mantra, I'm bringing in,
Despair won't win.

Song is done! Another very emotional and personal song for me. It's 100% honest. I'm doing all I can to keep on. It's difficult but the music does help me a lot.